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08 June 2010 @ 08:06 pm

Just thought I would update if any of my friends are still active?

Look at my amazing daughter!

shes a couple months younger here...

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she's AMAZING! she's a such a well behaved baby. shes sleeps all night. she plays for hours by herself. she takes long naps during the day. not only that but she is the reason i keep going.  i seriously don't know where i'd be without her.  she puts a smile on my face everyday. just wanted to share the light of my life with everyone. i'm so proud of her! i even got a tattoo for her a month ago:

12 April 2010 @ 12:35 am
everythings a mess. i hate myself for bringing my daughter into such a fucked up family.
22 October 2009 @ 10:18 pm

she is so perfect ♥

08 October 2009 @ 10:26 pm
my babygirl is here!
alana grace deal
born 12 a.m on oct 3rd
9 lbs 7 oz

after 16 long hours of labor and then having to get a c section, she came!
i would do it all over again for her though.

obviously before all the pain..

chubby wubby thighs :)

daddy & alana. daddy looks scared shitless. hahaha

my dad seeing her for the first time

me finally getting to see her for the first time! they knocked me out during the c-section because i was screaming in pain. and i woke up without my baby :((

my mommy with her

my dad loves her soo much!

going home:)

19 September 2009 @ 11:18 am
5 days til my due date!
I better go into labor sooner than that though. I'm goin nuts.
13 September 2009 @ 10:37 pm
i'm gonna be a mother any day now.
and even with her kicking me every 5 seconds, and with her room done, and with all her clothes washed & folded, it still doesn't seem real.
my life's about to change dramatically and i don't even think i really know it yet.
i can't wait to meet my little girl.
15 July 2009 @ 08:27 am
so far my summer has been sort of uneventful. but i like it like that.  i get to sleep, & chill, & sit out in the sun when i want. to me, it doesn't get any better than that!

i'm STILL goin strong and working. saving $100 a week. in the past 5 months, i've mangaged to save $3700! i know its not all that much, but it's a lot for a short time and if i keep working, i should at least get up to like $4200. I'm just hoping its enough for my daughter when she's born, since I won't be working for a little while before/after that...it will be the only money I'll have for a while.

I FINALLY settled on a name...Alana Grace. For some reason I just stopped like Kendra out of no where. haha

Tomorrow I will be 30 weeks pregnant...30 weeks! thats nuts to me.

I'm going on vacation on saturday and when I get back my baby shower will be here before I know it :)

Tony & I are actually speaking once again, and things seem to be going good.  I really hope he doesn't mess them up. There's not anytime to fix things this time.  If something happens, we will probably not be talking when the baby's born. And that's the LAST thing I want.  I want him to see her born.

hmmm well that's about it! Cya :)
09 June 2009 @ 05:56 pm
Everything's been pretty boring. I just can't wait to graduate. Senior nights tomorrow, where we'll get our LAST year book :( how sad. But not really, i'm over high school! haha. Still haven't heard from Tony. It's been like, 2 weeks almost. It just makes me mad how he can say some of the things he did and not even attempt to apologize. Its not like I would accept his apology anyway, I guess I just wanted to know that he cared enough to apologize. Whatever. I don't do anything anymore. I don't go out or ever do anything anymore. No one asks me to do anything. I'm glad there will be lots of Grad parties coming up so I'll actually have something to do for parts of the summer. Its pretty sad when you don't have to charge your phone for a whole WEEK cause no one calls you or anything. I'm going to the shore for a week in the middle of July. Sarah & Lauren are coming to visit. I'm hoping all this stuff I have to do during the summer will make the rest of my pregnancy go fast so I'll have my little girl before I know it. :) I'm thinking of naming her Kendra Grace. What do you guys think?

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31 May 2009 @ 09:23 am

we are no longer on good terms and i don't even care.
he has just proved to be the person i thought he was all along..
22 May 2009 @ 12:53 pm
I hardly ever update this thing anymore!
So I guess I should start by telling everyone that it's a girl! I still haven't picked a name so if there are any you like bring them my way :)
Me and the baby's father are on good terms now, trying to be mature about things. We hang out every once and a while, but as far as us being anything more than friends, I doubt that's gonna happen. Maybe sometime WAY down the line when he is really ready to be mature and move on from his ex girlfriend. And the truth is, I don't know if I want it to anyways. I honestly want to just be alone for a while. I'm happy that way. I just hope things stay like they've been going. Because now I feel like my daughter is actually going to have a father that loves her.
I have a pretty busy weekend! Today I have to clean out my whole room (because I'm trying to redo it before I am 6 months pregnant, so I can start working on the baby's room), tomorrow I'm going to my cousin's grad party, then South Street with Lauren & Emily, Sunday morning I'm working for a bit then going to register for my baby shower! I can't waitt to pick out everything I want.

Summer is coming! And even though I will be fat and pregnant I can't wait! :)